Saturday, June 30, 2012


There comes a time in your life when you realize doing things by yourself is actually ok. You don't always have to have someone to count on, and you don't always have to constantly be with people. Sometimes all you need is some ME time. It is kind of crazy how nice this is. Being completely content in being independent, and knowing that your happiness is not dependent on any one person. That should never be the case. I believe that people need to learn to be happy with themselves first. We can't be completely dependent on someone else to make us happy. That is just not how it works. Yes, I am talking about relationships.

I witnessed a pretty crazy Facebook conversation the other day about a girl blaming men for her unhappiness, pretty much. She thought that men needed to change and treat women better, and that she was sick of what men had become. That they needed to higher their standards and go for better girls. I don't even know. It was a little ridiculous. All I could think was, "Who freaking cares!" Why are you letting all the guys in the world that suck determine your happiness? Yes, guys definitely suck now a days but so do girls! There don't seem to be many standards anymore, but why let that get you down! People are so focused on being in relationships that they forget that you actually can be happy without someone. It really is possible people! I do not know this girl, but I have a feeling that if she took the time to just sit back and forget about boys for a little while, if she took the time to work on herself and being happy as an independent woman, she would find that type of guy she was looking for. She would find that guy with "higher standards" because when you learn to be happy with yourself it gives you confidence, and confidence is what gets you through all the losers. This goes for men as well.

This was definitely just a ramble, but I think people need to hear this. Especially girls. So for all you gals out there, a guy doesn't define you. They don't determine your happiness, you do. If you are not happy it is because you are choosing not to be. Don't let not having a guy make you feel unwanted, sad, lonely, and confused. We are all freaking beautiful and I think it's about time that we choose to be happy for ourselves, and not let some stinker guy do that for us. Same for all you guys out there. Don't let us women control your happiness. Everyone, just do it for yourself.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Life Lately

Okay, so maybe not life lately. These are more my summer lately. Ha enjoy!
 Zoo day. I am a little obsessed with elephants.
 They tasted better when they were shapes. Oh well.
 New glasses!
 Delicious juice/coffee cafe. Will definitely be going there again!
Race For The Cure for my Mimi
 Love my Mimi and Papa
 First friend married!
 Night at Nickel Mania
 First snow cone
 Have you ever seen a more perfect ice cream cone?
 Dad's masterpiece
 Sprinkler fun!
 Only a little wet...
 Lil' bro
 Bon Iver with my buddy Zachary
 Seriously one of the best concerts I have ever been to!
 It's concert time!
 We were a little squished
 Thrice. The most epic/terrifying night of my life.
 Watermelon lemonade at the Farmer's Market. So glad it's summer.
 These boys stole my heart
 Chai Latte
 We are normal I promise. Besties!
 Love my job!
 Utah has to be one of the most beautiful places on the planet!
 Missionary packages!
 Arts Fest!!!
 Summer bike rides.
 Sunday best
 My puppy is my best friend
 First letter! Best day ever.


Well there is my life lately!

Tuesday, June 26, 2012


Here are some of my lovely random thoughts. Enjoy.

Walk in closets should be mandatory in every household. They just should be.

I need to go to Europe. NOW! Specifically Greece. I know a lot of people don't really like Greece, but it has pretty much always been number one on my list. I will go and then decide if all you crazy people are correct.

I need more adventure in my life. Preferably in the mountains. I just have a craving for a good hike.

Every household should also have a pool. They just should.

You should be able to command your hair to do anything. Let's be honest, it would make like sooo much simpler. It would also save on lots of money. My hair is very short, and I have these random days were I want it to be very long instead. That usually only lasts for like a nano second, but during that nano second I am sad my hair isn't long. Therefore, you should be able to command your hair to do anything. Just saying.
There needs to be a way to meet people from the past. I must meet Audrey Hepburn. I MUST!!

I need to go to New York. This might be due to the Gossip Girl overload I have had the last two months. I don't have a problem. Don't talk to my mother... or Katie Rowley.

I need to start collecting art... and candles.

Friday, June 22, 2012



Here Is To...

It's time to start over. It's time for a new start. A clean slate. Things have changed and kind of flipped my world upside down, but I know it's for the better. I am so much happier than I have been in a long time. I am excited for my future. I am not scared anymore.

Here is to new beginnings.
Here is to living my life the way I want to.
Here is to making dreams happen.
Here is to not saying no to adventure.
Here is to being crazy scared out of my mind.
Here is to living life one day at a time.
Here is to starting over.

I think for the past month or so I have been telling myself that everything is alright. That things will be fine, but I never really believed it. I put on a happy face and was pretending. That worked for me though. I didn't know how to really do anything else. It wasn't until recently that I realized I really just need to start over. Start from the very beginning and create a new life for myself. One with amazing friends (even though I already have those), one with lots of clothes, one filled with things that simply inspire me. Let me tell you I am going at it full force. My first change is giving my room a complete makeover.

So I have pretty much had the same room since I was ten. My room is pink, and let's just say a total ballerina room. There is just once problem. Not once in my life have I ever been a ballerina. Even when I was dancing I chose Hip-Hop! It is pretty much the exact opposite of who I am. I know something as simple as a room makeover sounds pretty silly when it comes to starting over, but it is the first thing I have truly been excited for in a VERY long time. It is all me. I am the one that gets to choose everything, and it will be 100% me. It is things like this that get me excited about life. Being able to be creative.

Another thing I have decided to change is do things that I want to do, but take those I love along the ride with me. I am such a visual person. A perfect day for me would be to hop on my bike, go to downtown Salt Lake, and just look at everything. Stopping at little stores I find no matter how random. I just want to see things. That is what makes me happy. As I have been doing a lot of thinking this past month, I have finally began to realized how much I love Salt Lake City. It is just beautiful. I have taken it for granted. I am so lucky to live in such a beautiful place.

One thing I have had to figure out for myself lately is the kind of people I want to surround myself with. This has been really hard for me, because it has caused me to really have to sit down and think about what makes me happy. I have tried to let people in to help me, and in that process I have figured out exactly what I need. I have a hard time meeting new people. I am definitely not the type of person that goes up to a stranger, and strikes up a conversation. I just can't do it. I wish I could, but it's just not who I am. My solution has been to really think about the things and places I love, and surround myself in those places and things. I really great friend helped me realized what those places and things were. For those of you that don't know, I am a Mormon. I am sure most of you knew that to. My religion is very important to me, and very close to my heart, but probably not in the way most people in Utah would like it to be. The truth is I would rather sit in a coffee shop reading a book, than go to FHE. I am going to find my kind of people roaming around on a bike in downtown Salt Lake, not in an institute building. It took a lot of time to finally realize that, but now I know what really makes me happy. I am not going to pretend anymore for the sake of other people or friends. That is just the way it is, and I am happy to be that way.

There are so many other things that I am finally excited about, but one thing is this blog. I have said this so many times, but I really have been trying to make this blog my own. I think I have finally decided how I plan on doing that, and I apologize in advance, but it is going to be even more random than ever! No more Music Monday, or Five Fantastic Things. If there is music I want to share I will share it. If there is something fantastic going on in my life, I will say it. I am sick of feeling like I have to live up to some schedule I have created on this thing. So from now on, there will be a lot of random thoughts. Let's be honest, it will probably be 99% random thoughts, but that is what makes it mine. So if you enjoy my crazy, confused, insane, passionate, sentimental, day dreaming random thoughts then stick around.